oh my.. i wonder what happened to "tis the seasons to be jolly." i honestly dont know what going on.. but people have been falling out with other people. just read ja's blog. i dont know what to say. but i suppose shes feeling the same way i do, about certain people. its like its completely been destryoed what we had. i'm sorry but its sadly true.
i never knew how popular girls in popular cliques actually had squabble within themselves. but reading ja's blog has just been a whole new dimension. i mean seriously. i love ja. and even though it sounds weird. i never thought girl x was half bad. you know. its retarded... YES.. its dumb... YES. but then again. i am extremely oblivious of things that happen around me. its a good thing being oblivious. but people close to me. you know how completely blur and shut out i can be sometimes. its all the mental training i think.
sometimes i think actually going through gifted and the vantrel teachings did seomthing to me. i get too focused on what i'm supposed to do.. and i miss all the little things. its like details no longer hold any meaning for me. all i care about is the outline. and therefore.. my art has suffered. unless i'm just so concentrated that i set the canvas on fire or something. thats something i havent done.. for an extraordinarily long time. sighs.
sniffs and sighs i'm too deppressed to keep this up. seriously. i feel all stupid. not gifted like i'm suposed to be. ok i have to go play drums at cheryl right now. i love joseph. i love kim chan. i love my metrosexual friend danton(i got you something from house. AND i'm tryin to find the metrosexual belt). i love ethel. i love eliza.
thank you people. i've never loved the bunch of you guys more.
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